Note: this is the second (and final) part of this blog, you can read the first part here if you missed it!
Almost everytime I talk to someone new about my Olympic goal, I am asked the question, “So, how many hours a week do you train?”, like the person asking the question expects to be astounded by the answer. When I respond with “Around 24 hours”, which does not sound like very much, I realise that it’s actually the question that is wrong. Training denotes time spent in a gym doing physical workouts. Yes, sport is about getting physically and technically better, AND it is about managing your self-esteem and emotions, your mental health and your stress levels. It is about eating the right amount, of the right foods, at the right time. It is about sleeping the right amount, at the right quality, at the right time. It is about making every waking (and sleeping moment) geared towards the question “What is going to best serve my dream right now?” - observing, recording, reflecting, communicating with my IST, collaborating on the best approach, and then implementing.
I am the Executive Director (CEO) of a non-profit organisation that works with people with severe and persistent mental illness. It is my dream job. On the one hand, I am not making minimum wage and I certainly could not take on this dream without the level of financial stability (largely covering my basic expenses) that this job offers, even at half time.
On the other hand, I am the leader of this organisation and there are significant repercussions of having the boss only working and present half of the working week. My Board has been incredibly supportive, and the majority of my staff have accepted this as the modus operandi for the next few years, however there are also inevitable impacts on workplace culture that are difficult for me to watch. My loyalty to the organisation, and my integrity in acting in the greater interests of the whole, have been brought into question by the making of this decision, which is entirely in my own self-interest.
While I was still working fulltime and trying to increase my training and ‘athlete work’ to sufficient levels to achieve this dream long-term, I was stressed to the point of multiple emotional break-downs and a whirlpool of constant negativity. It was unsustainable. I had the choice to abandon this dream to go to the Olympics, and avoid all the unpleasantness at work, or, take the hard path and have to witness the consequences of my choice everyday that I keep choosing it.
Additionally, this is not the kind of job that you can just leave at work 100% of the time, like frontline retail or hospitality. If there are deadlines that need to be met, I have to work whenever, and however much, to meet the deadline. If there is an emergency, crisis, or significant event in the operations of the organisation, or with the staff or people we serve, I am on-deck. It’s non-negotiable.
I am also a life, sport, and performance coach through my business, Force of Nature Coaching. I specialise in helping high achievers reach their performance potential. Kinda like what I am supporting myself to do right now. :)
Minus the details, most of this could apply to many athletes the world over. What’s unique about my situation?
AGE - I am 34. I will be 36 at the time of the Olympics. The competitors who are my greatest challengers in achieving my dream are 1-2 decades younger than me. Yes, there are advantages in being experienced and having the self-awareness that age brings; and at the same time recovery takes longer, injury comes easier, and gains tend to be much smaller and take longer to manifest.
FAMILY - Before I made the decision to train for the Olympics, my plan was to start trying for a family this year. By the time I am finished on this journey it could be significantly more difficult for that to happen. I knew I wanted to be a mum from a very young age, and the chance that that may be harder, or may not happen at all because of my decision, rears it’s head every once in a while as an anxiety that I have to repeatedly work through.
I live overseas. It may be true that you are successful as an athlete based on your performance, however, getting the opportunities to perform in the first place are often based on relationships and connections. I haven’t lived in Australia since 2006 and therefore many of the people who are now in a position to help me are different from those I knew back then. Additionally, government funders and sponsors in Australia are often reluctant to support someone not able to be ‘on the ground’ for them domestically, and those same groups in Canada don’t want to support someone who is competing for another country.
Why do I live overseas? Because I feel like I can be a better athlete for Australia, by training in Canada.
- The standard of competition is higher here, and with ready access to competitions in the States as well, the field is much deeper simply by virtue of higher population density.
- I have access to eight climbing facilities, each offering different advantages, within an hour of my home; and a facility with an IFSC certified speed wall, is only a 90 minute ferry ride from Vancouver.
- Most Open competitors in Australia coach themselves. In Canada I train with Andrew Wilson - the current National Team Coach as well as my gym team coach. He has produced competitors such as Sean McColl and Alannah Yip, and he is a great friend to boot.
- The majority of my support network is here: my partner, my best friends and my climbing team are here; I have the job of my dreams and an extensive professional network; many of my current sponsors come from relationships built based on years of association, and from my co-existence in the community with them.
Despite all of this, I still call Australia home (too). One of the proudest moments of my life was standing on top of the podium at the Oceania Climbing Championships in 2017 and singing Advance Australia Fair, knowing that it was playing because of me.
SO WHY THEN?
After reading about all of these challenges, you might be wondering why I am doing this at all. The answer is as multifaceted as the challenges themselves.
- Because I love climbing and I love training and I love competition, and I have never prioritised this aspect of myself ahead of any other and I want to see how far I can go.
- Because the Olympics are the pinnacle (pun intended) of the sporting world, and how could I possibly pass up the opportunity to go while there is still the remotest chance that I could?
- Because there is a good chance that I would regret it the rest of my life if I didn’t go for it.
- Because not doing something because it’s hard or scary is not a reason to give something up. While I still have passion for what I am doing, can still meet my basic survival needs, and it still feels right, I will continue down this path despite the hardships.
- Because there is a little part of me that hopes that someone could be inspired by what I’m doing, and it will empower them to step out of their comfort zone, and share in knowing how incredible it feels to put 100% of yourself into something important to you.
WANT TO HELP?
The truth is: I can’t do this alone, and every little bit of support helps.
- Follow me on Social Media - the more followers I get, the more likely it is that sponsors will see me as a good investment.
- You can donate to my journey through Paypal using my email address: firstname.lastname@example.org
- If you want a tax receipt and are Australian, you can donate through the Australian Sports Foundation: https://asf.org.au/athletes/tiffany-melius/
WANT TO KNOW MORE?
- I have break-downs of my budget, weekly schedule, and various other aspects of being an athlete that I would be happy to share if you are interested. Just send me an email at email@example.com
- If you are interested in exploring my life/performance coaching, drop me an email at firstname.lastname@example.org or check out my website: www.forceofnaturecoaching.com
- Check out my website: https://tiffanymelius.wordpress.com/
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